that's life

Things aren’t brilliant at the moment. The worst thing is, the only person to blame is myself; which makes dealing with everything so much harder as there is no one else to blame.

I managed to ruin the best thing that ever happened to me because of my own stupidity and short sightedness. Although I know things will get easier with time, for the time being anyway they are definitely getting worse and I feel everything is just at a standstill.

Your mind can play terrible ticks on you, especially when tired or just lazing around in bed. Luckily I am fairly active. I run and cycle everyday and of late have been swimming too, which helps to take my mind of things, plus as always Kester’s stories from his travels have me laughing.

I know things will work out in the end. Probably not how I want them to, but things will end up being OK. I am excited about moving to London, which should be within the next few weeks and Leon has already offered me a place to stay for a couple of weeks while I look for something more permanent.

I would like to refer back to a recent past blog in which I described Uni:

[it ends] Thursday, June 22, 2006 – “Alice, the most wonderful girl I have ever met, and would have never met if I had not studied at Portsmouth”

If there is one positive thing I can take away from everything it is that I had a brilliant time at Uni and at least I have met the most wonderful girl in the world. Not many people can say that.

I think that’s enough of the feeling sorry for myself stories. Time to actually do something this Friday: Town > Coffee > Frisbee > Swimming.

Hopefully normal JT will resume soon.